When I was deep in the Catholic faith, my family grew close to the priests that would take residency at our parishes. One of them my mother was convinced wanted my hand in marriage, but as he dedicated himself to God, it would only result in some uncomfortable eye gazes at my 15-year old self. Now that I think of it, that qualifies for the P-word I don’t have in my heart to write, right now.
However, today’s guest priest has become an uncle I never had. And what’s even more conflicting, is he carries a boyish buoyancy and charisma that actually makes him a strong pastor I see as someone who is actually doing what they love to do. My fellow Catholics and/or ex- members might know what I mean. If a priest can sing, dance, charm an audience with his sermon deliveries, and show up humbly in the communities he serves; it seems that he’d be a strong candidate. I have a sense of reverence for this one. And yet, it saddens me I probably won’t ever get to talk about why I don’t ascribe to this religion anymore. I remember a time bringing up the Davinci Code movie, made him a little flushed in the face.
I’m just glad we’re almost there. 4 more masses to endure. I have so many intentions for this novena prayer, especially as 2024 rolls in. And I wonder if God knows all this that’s in my heart & mind.
I’ve been praying for a miracle.
